The big 4-0!

Today I turned 40. WOW, I always thought 40 was really really old; Well I believe I have changed my mind. I feel better about myself today then I ever have, well except one time when I was so drunk I thought I was someone else. ( You know a long long time ago in my 20's)

So as I sit here in the living room pondering where I have been and where I am going, I know that the furture is going to be awesome. I have a God who will always be there with and for me. I have a fantastic husband who stands beside me looking in the same direction, who goes along with all the crazy idea's I come up with, supports the decisions I make and cheers me on when I am trying my hardest to succeed in my endeavors. I have a wonderful daughter who has grown into a lovely young woman and who makes me proud. I am blessed to still have my Mom here with me, even though we have had to fight several medical battles in the last 3 years. She is a great example that miracles do happen.

Now I do also have to mention that I have 4 of the greatest friends ever. There are 5 of us with different back grounds, different educational levels, different financial situations and different family statuses but God brought us all together and we are a perfect balance to the other. These women are one of the reasons I feel so uplifted. They know just what to say and when to say it or to just stay quite and look at me like I am crazy. They know when to threaten to smack me in my head to knock some sense into me. They listen to me when I need to be heard and I return the favor when needed.

So as you can see at this point in my life all is going well, however as I have gone on this journey to this new number of age I have discovered that you don't always have the best of everything, sometimes you gotta give more then you get, every now and then you take about 5 steps backwards before you can go forward. Once in a while you have to grin and bear it, fake it til you make it, or just plain ask God to give you strength.

I know that when I get on my knees every night and say my prayers that I do that last one quite often. Guess what... he does give you strength, he also gives you understanding, compassion and peace. I know I am where I am today because God has moved me to this point and he will continue to move me in the direction he has set for me. It is all about walking by faith and not by sight.